Camp: Tomorrow-Wednesday

So i'm going to camp tomorrow, and I'm not sure i really want to. I don't think I do...I'm scared. Some random boy and I were chosen from the entire confirmation group to go on this trip, paid for by the church itself ($250). It's a leadership camp or something, which makes no sense because I have absolutely no qualities of a leader about me. What if I just make a fool of myself there? And I'm so shy, I'll probably just be that quiet kid in the corner who doesnt make any friends and has a miserable time. I don't even know what we'll be doing there, or what it's for or [obviously] why I was chosen. I suppose it has something to do with the fact that Heather Wesp wants me to be a leader for the youth group next year. Ughh I dunno but I have such a raging headache right now, I just wanna play Kingdom Hearts and I can't!

I gotta try to be positive, as much as I don't want to and probably can't. All I can think of is taking pictures, haha. I'll post them when i get back. Oh my god, I'm so hungry...I'm gonna go eat...I might post again later, I might not...I dunno what to eat....

One day gone

Dawn til dusk, the winds blew. This day started cold, empty but for the new spring birds chirps, meaningless. The air nipped at my skin, testing me; a greeting. Only when the sun came up did I feel the warmth of your welcome, full of the energy, like that deep inside a tennis ball flying across the court.

Mid-morning rang with the power of your strength growing in me, taking over. We as one. Only when noon came, was I hit with it's full force, true meaning and the suns final blast of light. Shadows changed their course, and i felt you slipping furthur with them. Cold and warm, dark clouds and short periods of full sight.

You said you loved me, then you left me in this darkness...

Don't Waste

Your Time

On Me

You're Al-

-ready

The Voice Inside My Head

...I Miss You

Look-alike?

Lyrics.of.Life[one]

S'pose I'll start with the most obvious and closest to my heart as of late...that which was my first post; Everything's Magic by Angels & Airwaves.

And do you ever feel like you're alone? All the time
And do you ever wish to be unknown? A reason to be lonesome
I can say that I have.

And do you ever feel things here aren't right? I'm all wrong
And do you ever feel the time slip by? Wasting away...
And I can say that I have.

[So hear this please.
And watch as your heart speeds up endlessly.] If only you could see how hard I've fallen...
[And look for the stars as the sun goes down.
Each breath that you take has a thunderous sound.] ...This could be us...
Everything, everything's magic. ...and it would be...
[Just sit back and hold on but hold on tight.
Prepare for the best and the fastest ride.
And reach out your hand and I'll make you mine.] It's not so hard, I know we can do this...
Everything, everything's magic.

And do you ever lay awake at night? Try everynight
And do you ever tell yourself don't try? Why bother...
Don't try to let yourself down. Gotta see**

And do you ever see yourself in love? Please...
And do you ever take a chance my love? Just say yes...
Because you know that I will. **It's worth it

[So hear this please.
And watch as your heart speeds up endlessly.] We're so close
[And look for the stars as the sun goes down.
Each breath that you take has a thunderous sound.] I'm listening so closely
Everything, everything's magic. Almost...
[Just sit back and hold on but hold on tight.
Prepare for the best and the fastest ride.
And reach out your hand and I'll make you mine.] Just trust me
Everything, everything's magic. maybe

Everything , everything's magic.....Sean, why can't you see?

EVERYTHING'S MAGIC

And do you ever feel like you're alone?
And do you ever wish to be unknown?
I can say that I have.
I can say that I have.
And do you ever feel things here aren't right?
And do you ever feel the time slip by?
And I can say that I have.
And I can say that I have.

So hear this please.
And watch as your heart speeds up endlessly.
And look for the stars as the sun goes down.
Each breath that you take has a thunderous sound.
Everything, everything's magic.
Just sit back and hold on but hold on tight.
Prepare for the best and the fastest ride.
And reach out your hand and I'll make you mine.
Everything, everything's magic.

And do you ever lay awake at night?
And do you ever tell yourself don't try?
Don't try to let yourself down.
Don't try to let yourself down.
And do you ever see yourself in love?
And do you ever take a chance my love?
Because you know that I will.
Because you know that I will.

So hear this please.
And watch as your heart speeds up endlessly.
And look for the stars as the sun goes down.
Each breath that you take has a thunderous sound.
Everything, everything's magic.
Just sit back and hold on but hold on tight.
Prepare for the best and the fastest ride.
And reach out your hand and I'll make you mine.
Everything, everything's magic.

Everything, everything's magic.

So hear this please.
And watch as your heart speeds up endlessly.
And look for the stars as the sun goes down.
Each breath that you take has a thunderous sound.
Everything, everything's magic.
Just sit back and hold on but hold on tight.
Prepare for the best and the fastest ride.
And reach out your hand and I'll make you mine.
Everything, everything's magic.

~Angels and Airwaves